Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Feeling Better

Well, After I posted yesterday on my Facebook that I was pretty irritated at my attorney in Uganda, I sort of got the blahs.
I knew I shouldn't but it just sort of overtook me. My heart cried out to God, "God, why do I have to wait so long? Why is this happening? When will my children be with me where they belong?"
We headed out with the family to go on a dolphin sunset cruise ( we are at the beach on vacation) and as we boarded the boat, and the kids took off to explore it and I stood on deck waiting for the cruise to take off , an overwhelming sadness engulfed me as I fought back the tears. I was glad I had my sunglasses on so no one would see.
As the cruise took off though, I walked with Duane up to the front of the boat to stand on deck and there at the hull was a little blue flag with a cross and dove on it blowing in the wind. A reminder that God brings peace through Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Later in the cruise my attention was diverted of course, to the kids who were feeding the seagulls and then to the beauty of the dolphins who were jumping out in front of our boat. As the sun set and the breeze was gently blowing, I prayed to God. I admired his handiwork, I noticed the laughs and delights coming from my kids and the sadness lifted. Joy filled my heart. Lightness entered in and I knew God was going to bring my kids home and that they would be here next time, enjoying the ocean, the sand and the beautiful sunsets.
He is the Lifter of my head. The One who restores my soul.



4 comments:

Gaunt Family said...

I have been physically ill with fear and grief in the last day or so. Like you, I just want to know and hold my kids. Thank you for this post Melissa. I feel hope in your words and faith.

Becky Ryder said...

My family will say a prayer for you all tonight in our study time. God's peace is amazing!

Blessed Mom of Four, Now Five said...

Praying you will hold your babies soon! Remember that our Savior is at the right hand of the Father praying for you,
Robbie

Tina said...

praying for you and your sweet children, may God continue to watch over them and bring them home safely.
Tina

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