Well, I guess I am just going to be transparent here. I had a terribly emotional day. I have been able over the months to stay strong during this long wait for my kids from Africa. Though I don't understand logically why it is taking so long when I have seen so many others come home from Uganda with their kids, I know God is in control and I have felt that I have handed it over to him.
But today, it seemed like a great sadness moved over me and I cried out to God, for my children.
As I listened to my itunes and decorated my little nephews 1st birthday cake this morning, the tears came and continued in spurts all day. On and off, on and off. I guess it was the culmination of a song I was listening to and thinking that Isaiah should have been home for Carter's birthday that did it. I guess too having another Friday roll around and having no news was sort of disappointing and this time the dam broke loose.The kids didn't know what to do with me. They haven't seen me cry much.
I will be better but today was heavy.
So,next week will come and new hope will rise in my heart, that I will get that email that says, come and get your babies.
Welcome to the Carter blog. There once were 5 of us, then we grew to 11, then 14 for a short period and now are about to be 12. Some may say we are actually ONE EGG SHORT OF A DOZEN for choosing to have a large family. We hurt and cry and sometimes yell but then again we laugh, forgive, and have fun much more! We call ourselves FAMILY. Join us on the adventures we seem to fall into on our adoption journeys and family life. You never know what you will find!
1 comment:
Oh, sweetie, I am so sorry for your wait. You're right, God has a plan for you, and for your children too. May He be with you.
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